FSA

i'm having a paper tomoro namely FSA-Fucking Sick Analysis
all i did the whole day is by sitting in front of my table and do nothing about this subject...
no matter where i begin, no matter how i struggle, i ended up in a maze of illusion
this subject is so abstract and intangible that made this subject so artistic!
if this subject were to nominated together with SEPET....FSA might won with distinction!
enough of crap....i'm tired n im gonna land in a world full of misery...bo3y in fuckingland...night

Dayang live~

The most promising artist i guess...she has been struggling in the industry for years and she do have good output...however, i do believe it's not easy in the industry when if u dun have the demand, the next day, ur out from the circle...i noticed her from OIAM and her journey of art began from there....OIAM is so influential...the made the voices of the underdog artist to be heard...there are so many talented underdogs that we only start noticing them when they rejoin a competition...n i hav to salute dayang for her courage in this industry coz ppl starts to debate of her appearence as the 1st Malaysian artist to join a singing competition...but..who ever cares! she has her vision and she and not afraid to stand out in the crowd altho she is competing with some of the amatuers....Congrats to dayang for her recent award after so long...ALBUM POP TERBAIK-DAYANG LIVE.....gud compilation in the album...she really rule the r&b industry in malaysia...thumbs up!

Dilemma

having said to start posting my blog in May...aiksss...i dun wanna fly kite altho im so darn busy with my finals till the 14th of May...and the mid of May going up Uncle Lim's place to serve for him for 4 months....i'm freaking out when i heard from my friend's friend that we wont get any access to the wi-fi unless we bring our own broadband up.....and dun ever think of taking the lappy to the hotel lobby or even starbucks....he was saying by the end of evryday...we r just mentally and physically tired tat we just nid some quality time with our bed!i'm so into my despair and confusion...and yet...hope i made the right choice of picking u! -Uncle Lim...

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in May perhaps...

R.I.P the Queen

Time:6-7ish

Date:7th March 2010

i felt so sinful for not getting in time to visit my granny while im now holidaying....i just had a severe fever recovery and keep on pondering whether to visit granny back in klang or not...who knows a phone call rang at 8.06am from my bro saying that granny had just passed away...more and more phone calls rang after that, from my aunt, my parents, asking when are we coming, what is my chinese characters (name).

如果没有明天~

如果没有明天

高以爱

帮我停住时间 和我双手紧握 给我更多的如果
如果没有明天 如果还有来生 如果谁能听得见

我们的幸福那么坎坷 为了这个拥抱满身伤痕

可是有什么好计较的呢 只要在你怀里我都忘了

趁此刻快乐的我们还在 我要感谢你让天堂存在

就算我只有你一个最爱 我也没有遗憾

if i die tonight

他们不会懂的 我们能拥有的 只剩下眼前的美

望着你的轮廓 忘了所有伤痛 我太快乐泪才往下流

我们的幸福那么坎坷 为了这个拥抱满身伤痕

可是有什么好计较的呢 只要在你怀里我都忘了

趁此刻快乐的我们还在 我要感谢你让天堂存在

就算我只有你一个最爱 也没有遗憾

if i die tonight

趁此刻快乐的我们还在 我要感谢你让天堂存在

就算我只有你一个最爱 我也没有遗憾

If I die tonight

This song hurts so good...this song is so meaningful as it represent love is always there no matter in what situation we are...the video clip is so artistic and creative as it stories about one of the gay partner who is getting married and have a mum who is ill and undergoing an operation...but as usual, i hate bad endings...the only flaws of this mtv is the ending...but overall, i tribute the creativeness of the director n script writer!

CNY DAY 2: Crouching Tiger

The GAB kids

model wannabe: couture la konon
shooting in the green ended up biting by mosquitoes

Day 2 of CNY is so damn fun when we the cousins went outing near my granny's place and cam all the way till dawn...nothing much to post this time for im kinda busy the whole 2 weeks after CNY when my submission of FYP, assignments, and exams are starting on monday...and will be posting CNY for the last time for tomorrow is already the last day of CNY n im still waiting for the whole set of CNY pics from my bro...

Furthermore, not in the mood to post anything for the humid wheather and the exam vibes...

till then: life can be awfully amazing

背對背擁抱~

The best new release song in my collection...i just heard this song during CNY while driving from melaka to Klang on the 1st CNY night...this song hurts so good.. we usually hear songs where the guy dumped off the girl and then the girl get fucked up and ended up in a suicide or massive crying....but this is the other way round...when guys hav a chance to really speak out their mind in this song...the lyrics actually kinda similar to BEI PAN(Gary Cao Ge)..lyrics as in the meaning...not words...do njoy the rest of ur days aite...and do click and listen to this song! ahax...the song tells it all...

背對背擁抱
JJ Lin

話總說不清楚 該怎麼明了
一字一句像圈套
舊帳總翻不完 誰無理取鬧
妳的雙手甩開剛好的微妙
然後戰火再燃燒

我們背對背擁抱
濫用沉默在咆哮
愛情來不及變老
葬送在烽火的玩笑

我們背對背擁抱
真話兜著圈子來亂繞
即使想讓我知道
即使想讓妳知道
愛的警告

話總說不清楚 該怎麼明了
一字一句像圈套
舊帳總翻不完 誰無理取鬧
妳的雙手甩開剛好的微妙
然後戰火再燃燒

我不要一直到形同陌路變成自找
既然可以擁抱就不要輕易放掉

我們背對背擁抱
濫用沉默在咆哮
愛情來不及變老
葬送在烽火的玩笑

我們背對背擁抱
真話兜著圈子來亂繞
即使想讓我知道
即使想讓妳知道
這警告

即使想讓我知道
即使想讓妳知道
愛的警告

CNY Day 1: THE AWAKEN TIGER

day one of CNY is nothing but just plain standard routine....woke up early in the morning at 6am...washed up and head to the temple...FYI...my family n I are half day herbivore for the 1st day of CNY...after the prayers, we head back my bro's home (Melaka) for the lunch preparation which was vegetarian...went to one of my malacca's uncle's house to pray for the "Boey's" ancestors and got to meet my long lost cousin who had just came back from France for his CNY hols...hmm..nothing much on the 1st day of CNY...usually every year, we-the siblings are looking forward for the 2nd day where all cousins come together...in order to get to the 2nd day...we still need to past the 1st day aren't we??so the rest of the 1st day of CNY...we just hang around the new AEON nearby Malacca Sentral...during dawn..we packed all our belongings and head down straight to Klang...for the 2nd day of CNY...tat shows how we want the 1st day to past!ahax....

Happy Metal Tiger New Year!

Wish all chinese around the globe a happy tiger new year and may this CNY be a prosperous and bllissful one....both my dad n mum are born in the year of tiger...kinda proud of it....lolx....for no reasons...ahax...btw...for i'm celebrating CNY in mlacca this 2010....hope to visit the lantern lighting in KEK LOK SI TEMPLE (PENANG) if i got a chance and time to go back penang...this year will be in klang for my granny's unwilling's condition....

anyhow...once again..wish all Malaysian a Happy Chinese New Year!
HUAT arrr!!!!

All about eve!

what??the almost 10 year old korean drama??HELL no!

this is all about chinese new year eve and nothing but the eve....

there are so many ways how chinese families spend their CNY eve...

for my family, its a tradition tat we gather around at home and cook home cooked food....

grounded ginger chicken

(lazy to put fancy fancy names)

scallop in steam fish sauce

steam fish with scallop

braised abalone

monk jump over the wall

hahahaha...

i don't use to appreciate home cook food during my early years...i tend to compare with all my mates...y they hav the tradition of going out in big big families and even booked for months ahead for any ordinary restaurant....but when im now staying alone for such a long time in a student's cell....i realised that having home cooked food makes me feel so warm and bliss....

The dinner was full of triumph and the food is just so great....proud to say tat i prepared it all by myself!ahax.....not nice oso have to say nice la...my parents n bro din't complaint...means nice la tue...lol...

sis din't join us since last 3 years for the chinese tradition, once the daughter had been given away, she will usually spend her eve and 1st day of new year in in-law's house....

P/S:life can be awfully amazing

Boredom strikes!

In the school lab right now waiting for the next class...the PC is damn sux that the only entertainment that can be found is blogging....the flash player, JAVA, adobe...all are not updated...therefore, there goes my quality time of playing facebook's poker, watching youtube, and reading journal articles....SUCKSS BIG TIME!!! the lab is still using CRT monitor screen and my eyes were fking sore by only watching at the screen for less than 20mins...

隐形人~

As some of u noe tat i'm such a huge fan of stephanie Sun...am glad tat she just released her new album with all of her classics...about 40 of them i guess....and while scrolling....i saw this title: invisible...if i would directly translate..meant so much for me especially when im in such jinx recently...so i took the time to hunt back in my unsorted junk winamp list...and i found this song at last...this song hurts so good especially what im undergoing right now...

隐形人

无论你看我不看

我不选择等

等到你结束好久

踏上了旅程

要是没有寂寞陪衬

没有途中的回场

你怎会上网找吗

你越是想要越诚恳

其实越残隐

伪装不了你对我

我悉得隐身

你不需我挺心永恒

不需我理行我们

不需我奋不顾身

多想化成隐形的人

掩饰我伤痕

给你我的体温

好把你驱走寒冷

当不强夜能感受心疼

多想化成隐形的人

隐藏我的泪在翻滚

我在你凌乱世界

留下的指纹

对你是没心跳的一个吻

朋友都于心不忍

这被我於穿

但他们都回避我

知错的眼神

可知我被爱的战伤

可知我你心过闷

可知我难得放任

多想化成隐形的人

掩饰我伤痕

给你我的体温

好把你驱走寒冷

当不强夜能感受心疼

多想化成隐形的人

隐藏我的泪在翻滚

我在你凌乱世界

留下的指纹

对你是没心跳的一个吻

多想化成隐形的人

掩饰我伤痕

给你我的体温

好把你驱走寒冷

当不强夜能感受心疼

多想化成隐形的人

隐藏我的泪在翻滚

我在你凌乱世界

留下的指纹

对你是没心跳的一个吻

berhenti berharap~

Shud I give up?? short but thoughtful~

BERHENTI BERHARAP

SHEILA ON 7

aku tak percaya lagi

atas apa yang kau beria

ku terhempas di sini

tersudut menunggu matia

ku tak percaya lagi

akan guna matahari

yang sinarnya terangi

sudut gelap hati ini

aku berhenti berharap

dan menunggu datang gelap

sampai nanti suatu saat

tak ada cinta kudapat

mengapa ada derita

bila bahagia tercipta

mengapa ada sang hitam

bila putih menyenangkan

ooo..oooo

Chorus:

aku pulang...tanpa dendam

kuterima.. kekalahanku

aku pulang...tanpa dendam

kusalurkan.. kemenanganku

bridge:

kau ajarkan aku bahagia

kau ajarkan aku derita

kau tunjukkan aku bahagia

kau tunjukkan aku derita

kau berikan aku bahagia

kau berikan aku derita

Blindsided

the feeling of being blindsided is still there...and i tot tat after these weekend...i will be release from this jinx...its giving me pain in my ass...and trust me...to all god's creation out ther...u dun wanna be blindsided...especially from ppl who u dun expect them to blindside u....but i did told myself tat life must go on no matter how...and yet...my guardian angels are not with me to carry me up...im crawling at a such slow pace that any wind comes i may fall to the ground again...be it...im forcing myself to get up right now and make my words count...

GLEE

Glee- a musical comedy series that airs on Fox.. but i watched it through another software..it focuses on a high school show choir which is called a glee club..it has only been my 3rd episode watching this drama...but i can bet...this had won my heart over it....no wonder they gt so many nominees for this drama series..season one has 13 episodes all together...and i cant wait to finish the whole season..hope i can finish it by tomorrow...if im free enuf...coz this series really tempts me to watch the next episode after the ending of the prior...n my bet to all of u...those who r a fan of high school musical...this is tonnes and way much better than that....im not a fan of high school musical...but Glee hooked me up since the 1st episode...the musics and choreography in this series is just superb...all actors do sing well and have a big talent...the plot is also good...jut imagine me watching only 3 episodes and im liking the story so much..thnx to Mr. murphy, falchuk & Dante...the producer of this series...not to forget all the actors that made the whole GLEE a "GLEE"?!?!?

A sinner's unwilling confession

i'm always the one that think of other people's sake first before considering what are the consequences that i'm gonna face....but why people just misinterpret my thoughts all the time??
i tried so hard to gain everybody's faith in me...but i ended up being the dumb-est freak that existed...being intimidated once and forgive is counted kind hearted...being intimidated the second time and still forgive is counted as dumb...i still ponder...how dumb can i be??should i make my own stand and fight all my curses or shall i just sit down silently and continue being intimidate??my guardian angels chosen the first choice but i just don't have the guts to do so...i'm not along side with the majorities...well..it seems like i have to hide back in my shell till the shell is being triggered again...live in a sin when ur not a sinner is so frustrating...

The Voices

I've posted this in my facebook notes...but i feel like writing it all again...this gives me the inspiration to be more focus on what im into...

Are you tired of being lonely, sad, and discriminated? I am. That’s why I think its time that I take a stand. For all those, poor, helpless people out there, who are shot down every time they try to stand up for themselves. For these people, I will take a stand. I will stand up in the middle of the world and say, "Why the hell do we even care?" What difference does it make if you like unusual food, music, or hobbies?? Because, what does unusual mean, anyway? If it means different, then everyone on this earth is unusual.

Well, now it’s about time these people got some recognition. But no, we don’t care enough for that. We just go on with our normal lives, working everyday, partying on the weekends. We cry when people die, and rejoice when a baby is born. All of the "normal" people fit perfectly somewhere in this complicated web of life.

But, me, I’m concerned about the people who don’t. There are millions and millions of people in this world that are rejected from the social circle for incredibly stupid reasons, such as not having as much money as the rest of them, not being into the same types of music, being overweight. I mean, what is this world coming to? Every where you look you see notices on stopping teen suicide, and studies on the reasons for it. Well, if these people just took the time to open their eyes and look around them, there wouldn’t be any need for these studies. I mean, these outcasts who are being shunned, how do you think they feel? They wake up every morning with a sick feeling of dread in their stomachs, and try to prepare themselves for another horrible day of teasing and being bullied.

For these people, life is not worth living. Around people, they just try to shrink into the crowd, and consider themselves lucky that they are not noticed. They get home and just sit there, with no hope of anybody calling them to hang out or just chat. And nobody even cares. As long as they’re not being bothered, the in crowd couldn’t care less whether these people are happy or in a terrible state of depression.

Well, I think that’s life….and very similar to MY LIFE…..but i have to strive harder and be myself..be what i want….someday god will realise me…….

哭过就好了~

梁文音

哭過就好了 (紫玫瑰片尾曲)

作詞：姚若龍 作曲：陳小霞

不喜歡懷疑什麼　並不表示我沒有感受

看你微妙的變化　慢慢不同

我不是生氣 只是心痛

最討厭被誤會了　但越解釋越覺得難過

你可以說人會變　但不能說

你會這麼做是我的錯

哭過就好了　傷都會好的

這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨

愛是為了擁抱 為了牽手

不是為了爭吵 為了調頭

哭過就好了　痛都會走的

記憶有限所以它會淘汰壞的

失眠聽歌想念雖然苦澀

還是謝謝你讓我 長大了

越多美好堆疊的過往

想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷

要找勇氣 卻不在口袋或手上

但它一定在我身上某個地方

天黑黑~

this song is specially dedicated to my lovely granny that had diagnosed with cancer...from the outside..i mayb doing wat ppl usually does...laughing all around..playing the fool all around....but deep in my heart...the only person tat has been always in my soul...as my guardian angel...its all in the blood...

the thing i learned is we shud not blame nor feel unfair...we were born to be unfair...therefore..we shud just be thankful and be merrier...life is just a game...then just rock the game...

sometimes, we do not have what we like, or we do not like what we have...but someday, we will have what we like and we will like what we have...tats life!cherish all people among us and live life to the fullest..

孙燕姿 天黑黑

我的小时候　吵闹任性的时候
我的外婆　总会唱歌哄我

夏天的午后　老老的歌安慰我

那首歌好象这样唱的

天黑黑　欲落雨　天黑黑　黑黑

离开小时候　有了自己的生活

新鲜的歌　新鲜的念头

任性和冲动　无法控制的时候

我忘记还有这样的歌
天黑黑　欲落雨　天黑黑　黑黑

我爱上　让我奋不顾身的一个人
我以为　这就是我所追求的世界

然而横冲直撞被误解被骗

是否成人的世界背后总有残缺

我走在　每天必须面对的分岔路

我怀念　过去单纯美好的小幸福

爱总是让人哭　让人觉得不满足

天空很大却看不清楚　好孤独

天黑的时候　我又想起那首歌

突然期待　下起安静的雨

原来外婆的道理早就唱给我听

下起雨　也要勇敢前进

我相信　一切都会平息

我现在　好想回家去
天黑黑　欲落雨　天黑黑　黑黑

Untitled

it has been almost 2 weeks for not updating my blog...i spent the whole 1st week in miri n KK with all my mates...then 2nd week in vietnam...damn tiring...not gonna update bout vina nor the east in the post...too much to ponder in such a short time...im too tired of my FYP n all those upcoming assignments..perhaps im still tired of the time lag between vina n malaysia..but its only an hour diff...or mayb i had too many flights in the whole 2 weeks...let me count..6 flights in 2 weeks and spent 2 sleepless nights in the airport...darn...will update my trip to viet soon once i get all my pics with me...and nt to forget the east too...will be leaving malacca to klang tomorrow...hmm...hactic but damn fun year for a start...

2010 Countdown show 1

I will seperate the countdown show post into 2....i'll continue the next post once i'm back in melaka...for i dun have the cable with me...took some live pictures but cant upload it to the PC now...the countdown concert in Queensbay was damn hapenning!!....not my favourite artists la....but at least i gt the feel at last for this year's new year....previous year was just celebrating in the bus..ahax....while coming back to penang from melaka...

Talking about the concert...to my surprise most of these Malaysian invited artists can SING this time!!and they do learn up alot of interactiing skills....i still remember my last concert was SUMMER 8 in melaka....aurgghhhhh....u dun wan me to explain further....ahax....but this time was great!most of them do prepare well and better stamina....

my most surprise of that night was there is a beauty pageant contestant, n now she involve alot in MC-ing and programe shows....i will just say THIS GIRL CAN SING!!!she dont only owns her beauty...but she also has a great voice and humble in person.

Do enjoy ur NEW YEAR and take care yup!
will post more when i'm back in melaka...kinda busy with all those lepak-ing

cheers!

Life can be awfully amazing!

2010~ HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

The day has come, let me recall what i have done on the last day of 2009

Morning: went to do some marketing with my parents...

Noon: lunch at home, doin some part of my fyp

evening: lepak with all my crack friends....getting ready for countdown in queensbay.

will update on the evening session in my next post...till then...have a happy and Merry NEW YEAR!!to all my friend's birthdays that falls on new year day...HAPPY BD!