K told me that im pondering too much lately...K said mayb becoz im staying alone all these while..i tot i can forget the thing happened...but i just cant get it out off my mind...seriously...i myself realise tat i kept pondering too much...just imagine i vomitted out yesterday...i just dunno y...not of sickness...coz i dun feel any unwell...but i just vomitted out...and rolled out crystals....im pondering yesterday, why im always the emotional instability one??i noe its no one else fault...its my own fault...but at timesi nid ppl to talk to...i tried to call...but i just feel like an idiot to always call the same person n tell evrything out...part of my ponders....K use to tell me evrything last time....i felt appreciated...but now...i noe there is sumthing hiding behind...but it is kept unrevealed....i noe its still my fault...im just pondering too much...seriously...i fucked up my own life....im sorry for myself and i reli do miss myself....i nid some emotional stability...hope god will realise me....
